Yay. Another dream about school. Another dream where everything’s okay. Another dream where we’re acting like best friends. What’s new. Even though I pretty much remember every detail of this dream, all it was, was it was school and me and shane were acting like best friends. i don’t this requires yet another explanation.
I had a dream it was the last day of school (Iknow, again?). Anyways. McCargo had an assignment for the ones who weren’t taking the AP test (I know AP tests are way before the last day of school). I guess I never finished it or something. Why do I always have a dream that McCargo gave an assignment and I either procratinated or didn’t do it? Whatever. So apparently Shane broke up with me days before this and I was going crazy, because I hadn’t slept in days due to depression. I was acting happy, but I really wasn’t. Oh, and Mr. Moore took people to the skating rink during school so that was cool.
I am unable to see the causes of my problems and the consequences of my decisions. Basically, I’m depressed.
The band was having a dinner at Olive Garden, but I don’t know why. Long story short, me and Shane were still together and we were still a happy couple, like nothing ever happened. Man, I wish my dreams would just come true already, except the ones when I had a new boyfriend and the other one when I was in labor. I just don’t know what happened. But since I already had a dream that I was happy once again I don’t have to post the meaning. I’m sad okay? That’s what it means.
You read it right, I had not one but two dreams last night. Both of which I remember, and both of which I am now really concerned for my state of mind.
#3: So I had a dream about this one kid who hung out with a few people in band. We talked and actually started going out. I dont think I ever knew him before I talked to him. He took me to a movie, which happened to be Speed Racer (I have no idea why, I never had any intentions to see the movie), but we didn’t actually watch the movie…if you get what I’m saying. And there was literally no one in the theatre so we did. (So ashamed of my self). After the movie we were standing outside and I saw him smoking, he offered me one, but I refused (thank god I still had SOME innocense left). But that was basically it. Apparently dating a stranger means that I’m representing my different sides of my personality and I’m trying to connect to unknown aspects of my unconcious. For the record, I do not agree with my dream and what I did not even a week after the break-up. But wait until you hear about THIS dream:
#4: I was being rushed to the hospital, to give birth to a baby…Shane’s the father. And I guess in my dream, teen pregnancy was totally okay. (For the record, I am against teen pregnancy and want to stay pure until marriage). So I gave birth and all that jazz then Shane comes in to see her, yeah it’s a girl. (It made my day in the dream). Oh, and apparently the band was performing at the hospital that very same day and same time. So in my dream, after you give birth, you’re perfectly able to walk around. So I went home with my carpool for the band thing with my baby and I was talking to Catherine how I was so happy about it. Oh I left out a part. I was walking back to the room (before I went in my carpool) and I saw Shane’s family wanting to see the baby too. And it looked like some doctors were telling them they couldn’t see her. It was just wierd. So all of this means that I’m giving birth to a new idea, it also represents a new attitude, fresh beginnings or a major event.
I’m so ashamed of my inner thoughts during sleep… Also I don’t know if you’ve realized this, but I’m having a lot of dreams lately.
I had a dream that my family went on a family vacation to Hawaii to visit my mom’s friend Misty. She lives in Washington in real life, but my mom and Misty and another friend are going to Hawaii this September. But all it was, was just a family vacation really, nothing out of the ordinary, besides seeing Rachel and Elli there too.
Apparently it means i need to break out of my daily routines and do something different. Now lets refer back to last post, what my mom said to me yesterday. As im typing this i just got an invitation to hang out with friends. So what does that tell you? I’m literally following my dreams.